And I am wide awake. I kind of knew that this was going to happen. I little bit of sweet tea mixed with a full day of cleaning the house AND doing all of the laundry sometimes makes for a restless night. I dread nights like tonight.
My mind wanders aimlessly. Was that a noise in the house or outside? Wonder if the Magic pulled off game 4? Boston beat the Yankees again? Is she ready for camp? He needs a haircut. Why hasn't she called back? Should have taken the garbage out. What's for dinner? Bike ride or walk today? Should I roll over or will that wake him up? I need to be still. I need to itch that mosquito bite. I should just go downstairs. I am going downstairs.
Nights like these do not happen often and for that I am thankful. I like sleep. I need sleep. I am not a good wife or mom when I am deprived of a good night's rest.
I was thinking before I went to sleep tonight about some situations that have crept up lately. Talked to a friend about it and realized that I am still very insecure in some areas of my life. Wonder if that will ever go away? Still need to pray and ask that it does.
My mind. Who is in charge of the thoughts and dreams and fears and ambitions that are swirling around in there? Who has the ultimate say about what keeps me up at night? Who says that I am not 'worthy' of that friendship? Or that my kid is not 'good enough?'
God give me rest tonight...both body and mind.
3 comments:
Hmmm, I was up at 3:30 this morning too. Elijah has been very conjested and was up coughing pretty bad most of the night. I think we are in control of our thoughts and we can take control of our thoughts and pray that the Lord will help us get back to sleep when we have nights like those. However, I have found, that these are the times that He wakes me to spend time with Him that I wouldn't get during the day or even during my regular quiet time in the morning. Anyway, just my thoughts on your post. Thanks for sharing what you were thinking.
glad to see you are writing again!
things worked out great with Mrs. Kreitzburg, by the way.
Hope you are having a good summer!
Kerri Stetler
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I would love to find time to meet this week. I have an idea, give me a call. Our schedule is a bit tricky, Eric's working two jobs.
Miss you!
Kerri
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