So very sad today...

My neighbors, whom I love, are ending their marriage today. There is nothing good about it. There is nothing right about it. It just stinks.

I want a redo. I want to walk up their driveway again for the first time and welcome them to the neighborhood, hug them and establish a friendship that concentrates on their impending marriage. We could have a study, we could have dinner, we could just hang out and be friends.

I feel like I am a kid in this whole ordeal. I want to scream at them and say, "what about me?" Do they know how much this hurts my heart? My kids? And my husband? Do we get to see them every other weekend? Is there any way that holidays will be shared with us? No...today is it. After the papers are signed and the last U-haul is loaded, we will be just the "old friends that lived in our neighborhood." Sure we will say that we will stay in touch but I know that it will slowly fade as we all work our way through life.

I will continue to pray this morning that maybe they will step up to the judge and say, "oops, we made a mistake. We cannot live without each other..." I will pray for restoration and I will pray for peace.

I am sad.