I need a diversion...

It has been a tough week or so and I am in need of a diversion from all of the sadness that continues to wrap its arms around me. I find myself thinking of Mindi's family, wondering if they are sleeping, eating, laughing, smiling or just functioning through this tragedy. I pray for them and I cry for them, too.

I am so thankful for all of my friends who continue to encourage me. They speak words that my mind can comprehend.

"It's not your fault,"
"She was not well.'
"You were nice to her."
"You did listen."
"What else could you have done?"

I agree with all of the wisdom unfortunately my heart is in control of this situation. My heart is not ready to close this chapter in my life. I think it is continuing to show me that there are going to be so many more people like Mindi in my life. What will I do the next time I know that someone is hurting? Will I find making dinner more important? Will I be Jesus to them?

I was telling you that I needed a diversion. That was the topic. My words were going to speak of how sometime a sporting event allows us to escape for a few hours, how sports act as a diversion from daily struggles, even tragedies. I am hoping for that tonight and that tomorrow will be one day closer to when my heart catches up with my mind.